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I'm leaving today. I'm going to Katie-Ana's for 16 days. Fun fun!
And I ate a cup (a literal measurement cup) of sugar mixed with a packet of kool-aid today. Sugar is bad for me. Not only does it usually make me sick, it makes me very hyper. My mind is in 7 places right now, one of them being St. Petersburg, Russia I'm pretty sure.

I daydreamed allllllll day today. And I'm writing a side-story because my story is failing so bad. My book story. Speaking of which, I need to ask Ben for advice with that. Remind me next time I talk to him.

Speaking of stories, I read ghost stories today. They scare me incredibly bad. But for some reason, I read them alot. I read them from time to time. And then I can't sleep at night. Katie-Ana makes me read them with her and occasionally watch the "real" videos. I don't really care if they're not really real. Shit's still scary. What's really fun though, is at sleepovers, Kat makes up her own ghost stories and tells them. She makes the best ones. And she tells them in such a way that you want to cover your ears so you don't get nightmares, but you just have to know what happens next.
I miss our sleepovers. We had alot of fun.

Oh, I made a formspring friend. She asks me questions. Usually multiple ones in one question. Speaking of my formspring, I don't think I ever showed you. Ask me thinggsssssss. Please.

I read through a bunch of Cyanide & Happiness today. I laughed like, twice and then I got really bored. Then I found xkcd. Is it pathetic that I laughed at like, every single one of those comics? I think it means I'm nerdy. Nerds are sexy. Bethany says so anyway.

I need to go before I talk too much. Oh wait, I always talk too much. I like sugar. I'm bored. I want to eat dinner. I want to see a big city at night. I like them.

Okay, byebye now.

I'm So Forgetful

But you already knew that. Anyway, I forgot to tell you about my new friend! Her name is Anna. I met her on April 20th. I'm a member at an Animal Crossing site, which seems to surprise people and they keep asking me about it like it's some suspicious thing. xD I DO play Animal Crossing and I've been on that site for months now. haha
Anyway
I'm on that site, and I post alot (really intelligent posts that people ignore xD) but one girl noticed me and just messaged me asking to be friends. She had Skillet lyrics in her sig so I said sure. And then we started talking alot and she gave me her number so I texted her (we're on the same phone company so it's free). She and I have alot in common and we talk ALOT, so it's cool. Um, she's awesome and older than me and really pretty and she and I are both marrying Adam Lambert and she's moving into Bethany and Kat and my already thriving polygamist community in Utah. Oh yes. (there's a story there that I won't get into haha)
Anyway
So that's Anna. I'll probably talk about her alot. Hope she doesn't mind. Here's a funny fact, she asked me at some point if I had alot of friends on the Animal Crossing site, I said no, but that I had a few friends who I met elsewhere and texted and stuff that were on there, but we hadn't met there. She asked who so I gave her Ben and Elise's usernames and as it turns out she already knew Ben. I heard there was a slightly awkward conversation between them about me. And now she met Elise too the other day. Funny how small the internet can be, no? :P

I'll probably post another blog later, but anyway this is my introduction of Anna to my blog. REC, this is Anna. Anna this is REC. And now I shall start school.

So today I watched a cute movie and ate popcorn with mac and cheese powder on it.
I also found out we are out of strawberry milk.
I'm also working on knitting again. Mom says this year we can sell the scarves for college money.
Speaking of Mom she's going to be home tomorrow. She finally called and said so. I was happy.
Next week Katie-Ana's baby is due. I'm excited. She wants me and Mom there, so we'll be driving out there on Thursday morning. Not tomorrow but next Thursday.

I like today.

Do I Attract The Weird People Or Do They Just Find Me?

I know I'm insanely hot, but saying a demon is going to kill you unless we sleep together?
I'm sorry, I don't really care if he does kill you, I'm not going to sleep with someone that out of their senses, I'm sorry.

I swear, do they just find me or is it something I do to attract them? They're all insane...

Almost

Yesterday, I did what I decided sounded most fun. I took the trains to town, and went shopping. Well, not so much shopping, as just wandering around. I found the exact place I love best in the world. It's a lingerie store. Do not take that the way it sounds, because it's not the store that I love. It's the location. It's by a little lamppost all covered in ivy and the little building is short and small and every detail of it is intricately magical. I would love to be there all day and simply watch it. Though due to its risque nature, that would be too uncomfortable. So I simply walked past and on to other destinations.

I found myself last night out at the pier. I watched the sun go down behind the ferris wheel and it made me happy. The ripple of the water was calming as I watched the boats drift along. The night was nearly perfect, though there was just something missing and I couldn't place what..

And now today I am curled up on the sofa with a hot cup of tea and a blanket watching Mansfield Park. It's my favourite of the Austens, and I never grow tired of it. I'm perfectly happy right now. More than usual. Though, I still feel as if there's something missing. And I only wish I could say what..

It's Over

THREE DAYS LATER AND I CAN'T GET OVER... I LEFT HER, SHE HATES ME, AND WE'VE BEEN FRIENDS SINCE 1990!
Hawk Nelson. Listen to it.

anyway

Soooo, I finally told Ben something I hadn't even told you.
Oh the secrecy.
Things are cool, and god it feels good to have at least said it. haha
I'm not good with keeping things inside. As you undoubtedly had figured out by now.

So, from here.
Kat and I are going to try channeling emotions. It sounds painful. Literally.
Like, shock therapy minus the shock. But it also sounds fun. And if we happen to hypnotize ourselves into dates before our birth (haha I love that movie <3 [Somewhere In Time]) then we'll see you once we're retired.

But it really does feel better now. :P

Today Is So Much Better

My friends are amazing. I said on a status that I wasn't doing so well, and like...within 5 minutes everybody was all involved.
Bethany and Anna told me they loved me, Ben kept me distracted to cheer me up, Chris just let me rant about Wednesday's events to him, Katie-Ana said she'd give me a spoonful of her ice cream but she got to eat the rest, and Jesus even offered to read me Twilight if it would help, which is sayin alot. (from now on I'm just going to call him G, because I feel awkward saying "Jesus" and not referring to "Jesus Christ" because although He's my very best friend, I highly doubt he has a Facebook. :P)

Anyway, I'm feeling much better today. Mostly because I have the best friends and I know that I'll be alright as long as I have someone I can talk to.

I've noticed though, that sometimes...sometimes it shows who isn't the best friend. It shows the friends who will just tell you why you're wrong and not help you. And it's the friends like that who I don't want. Because all they do is make it worse. I'm not the kind of person who wants to lose friends, but now I know. That's not who I need to talk to anymore. If they just want to judge me, then I'm not going to give them anything to judge. I'll say hi if they do, but otherwise I'll let them live their own life and I'll solve my own problems with my own friends.

Yes that was directed at someone.

But no, today is much better. And to all my friends who helped me out - thanks. I love you guys alot. (: