Right now I feel like Pippin on Lord of the Rings. At that part where Merry's like "Why did you look, Pip? Why do you ALWAYS look?"
I have the same problem. I always look, and I always regret what I find.
He doesn't know that I know, but I know. And I tried to make a joke, and he got all offended or whatever. Why do the rules apply to me but not him? Idfgi.
And I shouldn't have looked.